If walking is just putting one foot in front of the other.....

Than why is it so hard?  This week I am simply surviving.  I am feeling down and like a failure.  I am not sure why, I know I am doing better than I was two months ago.  Maybe it is this endless winter, maybe it's my raging hormones, maybe it is the utter lack of chocolate in my life.  I don't know exactly what it is, but I wish it would go away. I have slacked on my exercise this week, and I have been lax with my eating.  And surprise, the eating, it didn't make me feel any better.  Not one bit.  Actually, it makes me feel worse.  After I had licked my way through a container of leftover buttercream icing last night, the only thing I felt was a sugar headache and indigestion.  Then I played the blame game.  I yelled at Jeremiah for not taking it away from me, I yelled at myself for not throwing it away a week ago. I tried to blame the kids for not eating it, I mean come on, they usually eat me out of house and home! Then I just felt like an idiot for eating it.  Why do simple Kindergarten concepts escape me? Anna, if you eat too much of something sweet you get a belly ache!  And if you do something, you can try to blame someone else, but it's your fault and your responsibility.  And then I do this. I sit around and think about it, beat myself up, and try to convince myself that I am doomed for life and destined for obesity.  They say that recognition is the first step, so, I recognize the problem.  Now what the hell do I do about it?