Thursday, February 11, 2010
So I am going to Hell....
I was thinking today, yes, amazing. And I am not even sure I should write this, but I shield nothing, so here goes. Am I the only person out there who has a favorite child? I can't be, right? I love all my children. Endlessly, totally, all consuming. But let's face it.....there are people out there in the world that are just easier to love. And I have one of these little people for a child. Pensive, quiet, thoughtful, helpful, and I hate to say it EASY. The other two-challenging, whiny, uncooperative, melodramatic, sassy...UGH!! Maybe when God was hand selecting my offspring, he knew. He knew I needed at least one to help me maintain my sanity. So he gave me a little gift disguised as a quiet, sweet, sensitive girl with soulful eyes. When she laughs her little nose wrinkles up like a cute bunny. And yeah, the other two are beautiful too. I just don't notice it as much when one is telling me she hates me and can't seem to form her mouth into anything resembling a smile, and the other one is screaming at the top of his lungs in his room kicking the wall. So, I know that just for thinking it, much less writing it down, I am sure I am going to Hell....
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you are NOT going to Hell! the only way to Hell is negative volition toward God...and you don't have that, so you're good:-)
you are not the only one who feels this! (yes, I know I don't have kids of my own so can't speak from experience, but I know A LOT of people and have been intimately a part of their lives for ages. C'mon, people tell their massage therapist more then their counselors -if they have one!) Some people are just EASIER to love, and that is it. It is not that you don't love the other two, you do without doubt, but they are challenging you at the moment. One is testing boundaries the other is just "at that age"...girls are nasty by the way. I told my mom all the time that I hated her and she was ruining my life. Now, we are the best of friends, and am glad she "ruined my life" with some of the things I thought (at the time) were so mean, unthoughtful, and bitchy. I hate to say it, but Mom WAS right! Your kids, God willing, will see it that way one day too. You never know what the future will hold, and sure that your relationships with each of your children will turn out beautiful. Nurture them like a lovely garden; getting the weeds out can be difficult at times, but worth it in the end!
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