Life's simple pleasures....

I have decided that I am adopting a new idea in my life.  As I say that it sounds rather silly, it isn't a new idea.  More of a new, old idea.  When did I stop enjoying my life?  Remember the simple joy of riding on a ferris wheel with your friends?  Or the sweet taste of cotton candy as it melts on your tongue?  Or building a snowman, or just playing?  I can't pin point the exact day it happened, but one day I stopped noticing things, stopped enjoying things.  I guess it was easy enough to do, it happened in small pieces.  First came the baby, the shotgun wedding, the sleep deprivation, then another baby. Then a child's illness, then bills, then layoffs. Then came another baby, another ill child, and late bills.  An ectopic pregnancy, miscarriage, postpartum depression, overwhelming medical debt and STRESS!  So I guess it was easy to get lost in all that, I guess I didn't have much time to go outside and catch snowflakes on my tongue.  Or did I?  And, did I really have it worse than anyone else?  We all have troubles, bad times, and stress.  I guess I just let it get the best of me.  I stopped enjoying life.  Stopped enjoying my husband.  Stopped enjoying my kids.  Stopped enjoying myself.  The only thing I was enjoying was food, and a lot of it.  But I wasn't really enjoying it, I wasn't even really tasting it.  It was just filling my empty days.  So one of the best gifts deciding to take control of my life has given me is vision, and a new perspective.  To see what I really have, slow down, and to enjoy it.  I have 3 beautiful, smart, and fun children.  So they aren't healthy all the time, they survived. They are all alive, and I am thankful to have them.  I have a husband who has put up with me daily for almost 13 years, and believe me, that in itself is a small miracle.  He is responsible, caring, and the best father anyone could ask for.  I love him dearly.  I have a house, a car, and a cute dog.  I have everything I really NEED.  And, I can taste my food again, because now I am more selective and aware of what I am putting my my mouth.  I realized that I really did have the time to go out and catch snowflakes on my tongue, but I was wasting it sitting around eating and feeling sorry for myself.  I am glad that time in my life is over, and I am ready to start enjoying life's simple pleasures again.....