I know far too many of them. You know those people.....the ones who can never be happy for anyone. They can never give a compliment. They can never just let you be. They can never drop the wall of self righteous bullshit they have built around themselves. They have to be there to suck the life and any little sense of happiness or accomplishment you get out of everything. This never becomes more apparent than when you start to lose weight or try to better your life. Why do people have to push their insecurities onto others to make themselves feel better? I was okay to hang out with when I was fat, but now I might just be looking a little too good. Then you have the doubters, the ones who tell everyone you know that they don't believe that you have lost as much as you've said you have. Or you couldn't possibly have gone on a five mile walk. WHY?
And why should I care if you believe me or not? I am doing this for ME, not you!! I guess if I am not doing what I say I am doing, I will stay fat. Isn't that what you want anyway? Seriously, what has to be wrong with you when you root for others to FAIL? I have always had the type of personality that is outgoing, loud, opinionated. I have a potty mouth sometimes, and can turn perfectly nice conversations into something totally inappropriate. But, you know what? I think I am a pretty damn cool, well rounded person. I am also caring, responsible, and hard working. I am loyal, loving, and vulnerable. I know I am not everyone's cup of tea. So here's a solution for you. Don't like me? Then bugger off!!
Go sit in you own world of self loathing and self pity, and leave me ALONE. Don't stand next to me with your sour face just waiting to piss on my picnic. I feel sorry for you because you will never take the time to enjoy your life because you limit yourself within everyone elses expectations of what you should be. Go stand in front of someone else and portray your holier than thou attitude, cause I am not buying it. Unlike you, I know I am not better than anyone else. And, I only answer to one person, my GOD. Last time I checked you weren't him. I am happy that I can be myself. I can laugh at myself. I can act stupid one night, and be responsible the next day. I will continue to live, laugh, and love just as I am now. I have had enough self hatred of my own to overcome in my life, I don't need yours. And, I love being ME.....just me.
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I knew I liked you for a reason....
Such is life, my dear. People will always try to drag you down when you are feeling good. Dad has told us about it one too many times. Good ol' crabs in a bucket. Like you said, keep in mind that you don't need their approval to be happy. The only thing that matters ultimately, is how you feel. Your ability to look above their pessimistic haze, and keep a smile on your face. To keep putting one foot in front of the other as we walk down the path of our lives.
I love you.
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