Frustration.....

Why is it that once you make a decision in your life, everyone feels the need to "weigh in" on it.  Questioning my sanity, my judgement, my parenting abilities?  And you call me your "friend"?  Have you felt this way about me our whole friendship, or just recently?  Way to give a girl the warm fuzzies.  So, to anyone who is worried about me.  Anyone who thinks I am selfish, stupid, or a bad parent.  Thanks for all your concern and unsolicited advice...or should I say no thanks.  I have spent years agonizing, crying, begging, and just plain old second guessing myself.  Making a decision to dismantle a LIFE is not one I take lightly.  Systematically taking apart 13 years of life that I had a huge hand in building saddens me, of course it does.  Sometimes, though, change is necessary.  Sometimes, sadly, things don't work out.  Or they can't be fixed.  NO one knows every detail of me, who I am, or what I feel.  NO one knows what it is like to live a day in my life, except me.  And no one has to take this journey and deal with it's consequences, except me.  What is fun about packing your life into boxes?  Looking through pictures, and wondering what the hell even happened?  Where did this all go wrong?  I don't find joy in any of it.  I am scared out of my mind.  I am questioning every move, every feeling, every moment.  I guess this is one of those times you find out who your friends are.  And I have to say, if you can't support me, then just leave me alone.